It’s been a few weeks since I last posted. And to be honest, I’ve been quite ashamed of how I’ve been doing, and I’ve also been having problems with my marriage.
I got off my diet for a few weeks and made some not-so-good choices. For dinner I mostly still ate meat and veggies. I weighed myself at the beginning of last week just to see where I would be starting off at. I honestly expected it to say about 370 or so because I gain weight super fast and in high quantities. Like it doesn’t even make sense how much and how quickly I gain weight. Anyways. I looked down on the scale and it said 351.8……
Yeah. 351.8. 2 pounds gained. That’s it? That’s all I gained over the last few weeks of not watching what I ate and eating things I shouldn’t? Hmm… Maybe my body doesn’t hate me. Maybe I didn’t make as many bad decisions as I thought I had. I didn’t think I had been exercising any more than usual. Lord knows my husband and I haven’t had any more sex than usual. (We’ve actually been having a lot less.) I had still been drinking mostly water every day. Maybe that helped? I don’t know. But I was very happy that the number was so low. I was still under my original starting weight by about 5 pounds.
I decided I would start again this week. So I weighed myself Saturday morning, not sure what to expect. I looked down at the scale and it said 346.8.
Holy shit!!! How did that even happen??? What did I do differently? I still ate the same meat and veggies at dinnertime. Maybe some cereal here and there for breakfast….Come to think of it, I didn’t really remember eating lunch too often. Maybe brunch because some days I wouldn’t eat my first meal until around 11:30 or so. I had been staying busy with editing pictures and keeping the house clean and whatnot so I didn’t really notice that I was hungry until I took a break. I had also started drinking some water that I had put fruits in. Pineapples and oranges. I made it a point to drink at least 4 bottles of that water a day for about 2 days. It wasn’t very tasty. It actually tasted like super watered down, not sweet juice. Like, pour a splash of juice in a cup, fill it the rest of the way up with ice, and let it melt. Then drink it. That’s what it tasted like. Yeah. I usually just tried to down the water as quickly as possible so I hopefully wouldn’t taste it. Then I would drink at least another 2 bottles of regular water in between. I wouldn’t let myself drink anything else until I got my daily goal of water intake down first. I don’t know if I’m going to continue with the fruit water because I drank 2 bottles of it today, and I’m feeling pretty nauseous. Of course this batch had cucumber in it so I don’t know if that contributed to the nausea or not. Either way I’m pretty excited about the 5 pounds down. I just hope I can keep it up. Luckily, we’re broke again so I can’t have my husband go to the store and buy me any candy, lol.